bleh.

sorry kids.
been a little busy.
things are going a little crazy of late – with lou constantly in my face and all that.
eddie’s away so i’m running things on my own.
it’s not that difficult.
i just refuse to have lou as my assistant which cal suggested.
but i shot him down with one of my infamous death stares.
yes, he knows about the dramas.
he’s apologized as well – and claims that if he had known, he wouldn’t have hired her.
not his fault.
hers.

keeley and charlie had a little dinner at theirs last night, so madz, angelo, shane and i went around for a good feed with the best company i could ever ask for.
fuck that’s really clucky.
but it’s true.
since kandi died it’s been quieter (with the exception of lou’s abrupt entrance into our lives.)
there’s been less partying, less bullshit, less fucking around.
of course, we miss her.
it’s just… weird i guess.
seeing her sister day in day out, it’s like kandi never left.
only this is the malicious version of her.

it’s really fucked working with lou.
i have to be careful not to let it become personal.
it’s a little hard though.
luckily eddie’s back next week to help me stay sane.

i’m over it.
i need a smoke.
might blog again later.
maybe…

not.

- love flo.

ugh!

one more day til the weekend.
thank god for that.

this week has been a nightmare.
lou has been trying so desperately to get my attention.
i won’t have a bar of it.
i make sure eddie is with me at all times.
except for today.
she caught me in the elevator.
i swear to god i will have to get a restraining order against her soon.

she said hi.
i looked at her blankly.
she asked how i was.
i looked at her blankly.
she gave me a smile.
i looked at her blankly.
she asked me why i didn’t want to speak to her.
i rolled my eyes and looked down at my cell.
she asked me why i hated her so much.
i began texting madz.
she said she’d put everything behind and forgave me.
i looked at her in awe.

flo: i didn’t realize i needed your forgiveness.
lou: oh good, you’re talking to me.
flo: you know you’re just like your sister. manipulative and two faced.
lou: we are twins.
flo: you’d be the evil twin.
lou: i’ll take that as a compliment.
flo: you have some serious fucking issues.
lou: you don’t have to be so hostile you know
flo: don’t i? you’re making my life hell. so stay out of it. this is purely business understand? don’t get all personal with me – i want nothing to do with you outside this building.

and i walked off.
i was so closed to hitting her i’m so grately i didn’t.
i would have broken a nail.
she needs to stay away from me if she knows what’s good for her.

on a happier note, i was looking forward to friday.
i had a dinner planned with the girls.
and then the weekend was just around the corner and i’d be spending most of it with shane.
good times.

- love flo.

mondays suck part deux

another monday that sucked.
just got home from work.
the week practically flew.
which is a good thing.
but then not so good.

weekend news?
nothing much really.
madz and i are currently in discussion about her upcoming birthday.
not sure what we’re going to do.
we’ve all stopped clubbing since kandi passed away.
not that it’s the reason.
we just haven’t been in the mood.

we did go out for drinks though to meet eddie’s new boy diego.
i must say he is quite cute.
and definitely suited to eddie.
he was very down to earth and very charming.
pity he was gay though.
he would make some girl very happy.
but i guess eddie was classed as a girl so it wasn’t a total waste.
jk.

shane and i had dinner last night.
nothing major, just the two of us and some fine dining.
we talked, joked and laughed.
he asked me about lou and why i had become so hostile to her.
i gave him a blank look.

shane: i’m just curious. you seemed ok with her when her sister died, but then after the whole diary thing, it went well… sour.
flo: she’s a sour person.
shane: how so? she was just very sensitive about the way her sister was upset about… dean and everything.
flo: but how was i supposed to know?
shane: she never told you?
flo: no, never. but the problem is the way she literally attacked me about it. i’m sure there’s a mature way to handle things – that certainly was not the way.
shane: ok, i understand.
flo: do you?
shane: well, yes i do and i agree – it should have been dealt differently. i bumped into her yesterday.
flo: really? where?
shane: uptown. i was out with the guys and she was there.
flo: did you or she say anything?
shane: just a hello. she knows theo.
flo: how the fuck does she know theo?
shane: not too sure, they have a history apparently.
flo: she sounds just like her sister.
shane: don’t get upset over it, it can be a very small world sometimes.
flo: i wish she would just go back to where she came from.
shane: a little hard when she works with you now right?
flo: i don’t understand how that’s happened.
shane: have you spoken to her.
flo: no, she was away last week.
shane: didn’t she just start?
flo: i don’t fucking know.
shane: flo…
flo: WHAT?
shane: don’t get snappy at me.
flo: i’m sorry. she just… ugh, i don’t know…
shane: …frustrates you.
flo: it’s not frustration.
shane: well whatever it is, just relax. she’s not someone important, so don’t let her get on your nerves.
flo: a little hard when she’s going to be in my face every day now.

and it was true.
the woman was going to torture me with her presence every day for as long as i work in the same company.
kill me.

i spent most of today in my office going over reports and on numerous calls.
i received several messages on im from lou and a couple of emails.
she even texted me, she seems desperate to have her 2c worth.
she can shove it, i don’t want to hear it.
i hope she doesn’t go all stalker crazy on me.
i’ve got enough of that with dean.

i’m off for a smoke and then dinner – i’m starved.
bye for now.

- love flo.

mondays suck

how boring.
no news.
no lou either.
thank fuck for that.

work was the same – dramaless and effortless.
probably why i like my job.
but every now and then there’s drama, which is what keeps it juicy.

eddie and i had lunch together.
he’d met a new boy and wanted someone to brag about him to.
not that i volunteered, it was the least i could do considering how much the boy has done for me.
his new flame seems nice and pretty outgoing.
in fact, eddie wanted me to meet him.
so this weekend, we were heading out for drinks.
not sure where or which night but it was a good opportunity to catch up with keeley and madz too.
you could almost say it was a girls night out.

after i got back from bristol, i had lunch with madz.
no gossip except lou had called her and keeley asking if i was mad her.
what a fucking stupid question.
keeley and madz both said that they had no idea what she was talking about and for my sake, kept the conversations short.
it’s good to have such trust worthy friends.

i refuse to speak to lou.
she’s an ungrateful bitch who pretty much wants to destroy me because i apparently stole dean from kandi.
speaking of dean, he called while i was in bristol.
where was he?
in bristol.
how did he know i was there?
god knows.
he’s a fucking stalker.
he called me about 5 times and when i finally picked up, he made up some shit about how he was in town and watched to catch up.
i bluntly refused and asked him to not call me.
of course he called me again when i got back to nyc.
the man will not go away.

shane and i are going well.
he called not long ago.
we were supposed to have dinner but due to work commitments we had to postpone it til another night.
i didn’t mind.
it gave me a chance to spend time with tivo.
so instead, i spent about an hour cradling a 3way on my shoulder to madz and keeley, white wine in one hand and tivo remote in the other.
what can i say?
i specialize in multi-tasking.

as for right now?
i’m beat.
my bed is calling me.
so good night from me.

- love flo.

just another year.

christmas and new years.
not something i always look forward to.
this year though it was great.
close friends, the best mother and brother and shane.

i think it’s time that i got a little clucky.
shane and i got back together not too long ago and everything was just going great.
(knock on wood) nothing has happened that’s affected our relationship in a negative way.
he’s just a true gentleman.
we don’t see each other every day, nor do we talk to each other every day.
texting is a lot more frequent though with one or two exchanged daily.
but it’s good.
it’s fresh, but at the same time, it’s a vintage love we have.

over the holidays we spent time together, and time apart.
nye was a girls only affair at my place.
lina, madz, keeley and myself.
but of course the boys had planned a little surprised by rocking up just before midnight.
mind you, we were all pretty fucking pissed but hey, that’s how you celebrate new years.
nye for 2011, i think i’ll go to paris.

work’s out for another week.
so i’m spending it with mother darling.
yep, i’m heading back to bristol for a few days.
leaving tomorrw (or today since it’s after midnight) in the afternoon and coming back on thursday morning.
just in time for lunch with madz.

an update on the girls?
well… madz and angelo are finding a new place.
keeley and charlie are still going strong, charlie’s pretty much living with keeley.
and he bought her a puppy for christmas.
i forget the kind, but she’s cute.
lina and jared are heading out to travel the world.
my baby brother is ditching me for the universe!
aah, as for lou?
meh.
fuck her.

right now though, i’m tired.
it’s been a long, fun and drunken week.
i need to recover before i head off tomorrow.

- love flo.